I will be be coming clean about what hapened to me and Rose on that dark Anthrocon night.In case you didn't know, Rose doesn't want to be my friend anymore. But there is a good reason.At this past AC, I did something that I wasn't supposed to. I know that I already apologized for this to everyone on the furry community a few months ago. But..I never really came clean with what I did. And Rose is demanding that I do. And I absolutely don't blame her. So....I shall come clean with what I did.At AC...I told my friend Rose that she could come over on the Friday night of the con, cuz' she didn't have a room for her to sleep in.Well, late that night she came over and slept on the floor.A little while laterz, in the middle of the night, I needed to go to the bathroom. And when I came out..I saw Rose, and lust began to grip my mind. It was screaming inside of me. I know I should've rebuked it. I know I shouldn't [presumably "should of"] kept going to my bed and just stayed there. I KNOW that I should've done something to combat my fleshly urges....but the sad truth was....I didn't.I bent down, took off her shoes and played around with Rose's feet. I massaged them and gave them a few tickles. The scent of her socks and shoes kept calling to me. I got more deeper and deeper under my lust's hypnotic spell over me. And....I didn't something unspeakable! I lost myself in my own lust and desacrated my body!That night...after Rose left....I couldn't sleep! I couldn't believe what I did! I felt that I would NEVER be able to stand before God ever again! I cried and cried and cried until my eyes began to hurt. I begged God to forgive me! I pleaded and repented for what I did and that I would NEVER EVER do it ever again!God leaned towards me, with tears in his eyes and embraced me with all of his love. I litereally thought I was going to die from the awesomeness that I felt in that room from God being there next to me, comforting me, and telling me "It's alright. I forgive you! I forgive you because you are my Son and I love you so very much!" I NEVER felt so much love, I felt like my heart was going to burst!The next day...Rose came by the room to pick up her stuff, and basically told me that she NEVER wanted to have anything to do with me ever again! Her words broke my heart all over again. Even though I know God forgave me, I still couldn't forgive myself.For the rest of the con, Rose just gave me a ice cold stare. I absoloutely didn't blame her. What I did to her was unforgiveable. I betrayed her trust and most certainly broke her heart too. <:.(For the rest of the con...I just wasn't the same anymore..When I got home...The Holy Spirit told me to do something that I thought I would NEVER DO! I went through all my stuff, and got rid of every single one of the pics, photos and anything else that had to do with my fetish.I tore up all my photos, my pictures that I saved up, deleted all the fetish pics and photos on my USBs, and got rid of all my CDs and DVDs that fed my lust.And yes, that is why I deleted so many pics on my galleries! Every foot and tickle pic I made: GONE! And I promised myself and everyone else in the furry community that I would NEVER AGAIN do anymore fetish work as long as I lived.And as of right now...I feel so clean and free! <:DI've been 5 months without the lust, without the cravings and without anything remotely reminding me of my past life!I'm way stronger now! I can't explain this feeling! I feel absolutely joyful and free! <:.3I'm overflowing with the Holy Spirit and nowhere where I used to be in the past! And now, I can finally say that I can finally forgive myself, just like my Lord and Savior forgave me so long ago!
So, I went on one pawgrimage this year... to murry mecca.Pittsburgh.[...]Also, Just as a warning to anyone who might think about rooming with Sketch the Dalmatian in the future DONT.I stayed in his room one night tucked away in the corner on the floor and woke up in the middle of the night to him laying on the floor (and he was sleeping on the bed mind you) SNIFFING MY SNEAKERS!I'm PRETTY sure he was trying to beat off to my foot smell...
I've been 5 months without the lust, without the cravings and without anything remotely reminding me of my past life!
Also maybe he should be banned from the con. Just a thought!
